Saturday, January 3, 2009

I'm Printing a Retraction

So, I know I suggested that I might be sharing some of my favorite things from this Christmas, but now I don't want to.  One, Christmas is over.  Two, who am I?  Oprah?  Anyway, I am ready to move on, so I will.  Maybe I will bestow my incredible tastes on you all another time.  

Really, for the past few days I have been in a very fresh-start sort of mindset, but not always feeling peaceful about this new chapter or my place in it. Wanting many things to turn out a certain way and knowing full well that things may go nothing (for better or worse) near the ways I have imagined.  I have a lot of thoughts and a lot of fear about missing the mark on the dreams I am dreaming.   Often at New Year's, I want to reflect on the past year.  I have seen so many lovely photo mosaics posted on other blogs recently of that very thing.  But this year, so many things have weighed on me heavily that I feel incredibly grateful for the start of 2009.  Oh, don't get me wrong, in the midst of all the struggle last year, there were a lot of blessings.  God is good....even when I don't understand Him.  But somehow being able to just open this new calendar is the best sort of fresh start, even when I know that the year could be as marked up as the last one. 

Still...... it might not be.  And that makes all the difference in the world.  

And, I must admit that I have not always been one for resolutions.  I think it must be the "slacker-perfectionist" in me.  (I'm pretty sure that's the technical term for it)  You know, if I don't make them, I can't break them....which, I am bound to do.  It's so much easier not to be disappointed if you keep your expectations low.  In a sneaky way, maybe I am still doing that as my resolutions are not all that specific.  But I am posting them here to celebrate the clean slate and to be at least SOMEWHAT purposeful in how I fill it.  


1.  Have fun

2.  Do sit-ups

3.  Learn to knit

4.  Read more

5.  Let people take pictures of me

6.  Get a haircut I like and stick with it

7.  Wear flowers 

8.  Be patient

There you have it.  Guess we'll all see how I do.  Although, I COULD cheat on the sit-ups and no one would be the wiser...... ;-)


Dana said...

This post is so honest and true.

Thanks for being honest and true.

That is why I like coming here.

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Rosepoet said...

First, LOVE your locket... second, I hope that 2009 brings you higher spirits. Every time I come to your blog, mine are raised; a feeling of peace and happiness comes over me. Feel good knowing that what you're doing here is having a POSITIVE impact on a complete stranger. :-)

Melissa Crowe said...

Forget the sit ups and read a Marilynn Robinson novel--have you ever read GILEAD? The second book is HOME, and I'm reading it right now. Makes me cry, but I'm glad to be crying. You know? It's a very "New Year" kind of crying. (Think spiritual searching, spiritual striving, struggling with doubt, family love and difficulty...)