So, I know I suggested that I might be sharing some of my favorite things from this Christmas, but now I don't want to. One, Christmas is over. Two, who am I? Oprah? Anyway, I am ready to move on, so I will. Maybe I will bestow my incredible tastes on you all another time.
Really, for the past few days I have been in a very fresh-start sort of mindset, but not always feeling peaceful about this new chapter or my place in it. Wanting many things to turn out a certain way and knowing full well that things may go nothing (for better or worse) near the ways I have imagined. I have a lot of thoughts and a lot of fear about missing the mark on the dreams I am dreaming. Often at New Year's, I want to reflect on the past year. I have seen so many lovely photo mosaics posted on other blogs recently of that very thing. But this year, so many things have weighed on me heavily that I feel incredibly grateful for the start of 2009. Oh, don't get me wrong, in the midst of all the struggle last year, there were a lot of blessings. God is good....even when I don't understand Him. But somehow being able to just open this new calendar is the best sort of fresh start, even when I know that the year could be as marked up as the last one.
Still...... it might not be. And that makes all the difference in the world.
And, I must admit that I have not always been one for resolutions. I think it must be the "slacker-perfectionist" in me. (I'm pretty sure that's the technical term for it) You know, if I don't make them, I can't break them....which, I am bound to do. It's so much easier not to be disappointed if you keep your expectations low. In a sneaky way, maybe I am still doing that as my resolutions are not all that specific. But I am posting them here to celebrate the clean slate and to be at least SOMEWHAT purposeful in how I fill it.
1. Have fun
2. Do sit-ups
3. Learn to knit
4. Read more
5. Let people take pictures of me
6. Get a haircut I like and stick with it
7. Wear flowers
8. Be patient
There you have it. Guess we'll all see how I do. Although, I COULD cheat on the sit-ups and no one would be the wiser...... ;-)